Tired of Living
Not a single day goes by, where I don’t think “I’m so tired of life”. I just feel low, dull and drained all the time. Sometimes I don’t even have the motivation to live.
Here’s the thing – I’m not depressed. I’m a normal, healthy person. But at least once every 3 days I experience signs of depression. Signs such as fatigue, lack of energy, pessimism, feelings of worthlessness and others.
Life as An Empath
Ever since I was a kid, I’ve always felt things too deeply. I was the kind of kid that would rescue ants drowning in water. I would always give away my food to poor kids and go hungry myself. I didn’t want anyone to go through suffering, not even animals or insects. I just can’t stand it.
The world today is a crazy place. I think it’s safe to say we live in an era where there’s a lot of large scale suffering going on. Foreign country invasions, mass migrations, wars and displacements, child rape and slavery, factory farming and abuse of livestock animals, climate change, pollution…these are just some of the terrible barbaric things our world is going through, in a time where we are supposed to be the most technologically advanced.
All these things just compound my daily sadness, and make me feel tired of living. When I saw the suffering of others, who probably wanted to die themselves, I felt like dying too.
Empathy can be exhausting! What’s more, studies show that if you are an empathy, you are more at risk for depression.
“I’m tired of life, even though my life is good”
If you are an empath, overly sensitive, a little eccentric and highly creative, the chances of you getting depression is higher. Please do consult a doctor to be properly evaluated so that you can take medication, if necessary.
But for me, my life is actually good. I have a good family, live in a good house, have plenty of food to gorge on, a job and so many other things that I am so, so grateful for. I’m actually GRATEFUL for my life, and how much better it is compared to millions of others. Yet I still feel dull, low and ‘tired of life’. I’m only in my early 20’s! It’s too early to be feeling this way!
Take Control of Your Life
Life is too short to feel this way! The first question to ask yourself is, why do you feel this way? There’s a root cause for everything. Every time you catch yourself feeling tired of yourself, instead of lamenting in the feeling, ask yourself why you feel that way and how you can feel a little better. Perhaps you’re just exhausted from work and need a break…it could be something as simple as that.
Personally, I don’t even know exactly why I feel this way. May be I need to go for therapy. But here are the list of actionable points and prompts that I have written down in order for me to cope. I hope they will help you as much as they help me:
- Smile! It can change your mood. Or make you feel at least a little better.
- Be grateful! Look around you and count 10 things that you are grateful for.
- Get some sun! Just 20 minutes of sunshine are said to perk up your mood and boost your immune system.
- Don’t eat junk! Be very mindful of what you put into your body. Caffeine, refined foods and soft drinks can imbalance your health and make you feel dull and lifeless.
- Load up on nutrients! Eat nutrient-rich, live food such as sprouted almonds, green smoothies and fresh fruits to help you feel lively.
- Drink water! There’s a saying that “you are not sick, you are dehydrated!” Please make sure you are well hydrated as dehydration can make you feel slow, sick and unmotivated.
- Move! Being dormant and lacking physical activity can make toxins accumulate in your body. Make it a point to walk, and exercise everyday for 20 minutes. Exercise releases endorphins which physically make you happy!
- Avoid isolation! Being isolated can make you feel lonely and depressed. If you don’t have any supportive friends, at least get a pet. Pets are said to reduce depression and increase longevity.
- Simplify your life! I find that being minimal, organized and living a simple life does wonders to my overall peace of mind. Clutter and complication can make you feel overwhelmed and exasperates anxiety and depression.
- Take it day by day! Sometimes, I take it further and live ‘hour by hour’, just trying to get by as peacefully as I can. Don’t compare yourself to anyone. We are not competing with anyone. Take it easy and don’t stress about anything because stress can suck out your energy. Whatever it is, try your best and leave the rest to fate. What’s the use of worrying about things that are beyond our control.
I know life is tough. When you look around at the world today, you truly can lose hope and feel too tired to live. But hey, the very fact that you were even given the honor of life is a great thing! So make the most of your life. Even if it means just getting through it, day by day, peacefully, without any drama. In my opinion, a peaceful life is a successful life.
Note: Remember if you are feeling suicidal on a daily basis, you need to get help immediately. Inform your family and get in touch with a therapist.